List the names that drove you wild,
List the stars that lit a spark in your mind,
List the numbers that turning points arrived to yours you find,
List the moments that flourished your inner-child.
List the portals your soul has danced through,
List the time travels that dragged you in and tossed you out,
List the visions that insomnia vividly swept upon you to think about,
List the seconds of harsh rain washing away your hopes and alike a cigarette butt you threw.
List the dribbles of tears you covered behind the rain,
List the petals you tore in your heart hesitating whether or not to pursue,
List the fractions of the intoxicated poisoned your intuitions like a floorplan you drew,
List the promises you swore to never embark again.
List the thoughts that's inside your mind,
List the blood baths of destruction you've found yourself addicted,
List the confessions you hold yourself convicted,
List the things you've left behind.
List the pills you drowned in with water thinking that's your antidote,
List the reasons behind every clenched fist punching through walls,
List every silent prayer beneath every drug you held up high in a pedestal,
List every self-inflicted suicide note.
List every nostalgic playlist you pause only to rewind,
List those you wished to have kept around,
List the moments your knees collapsed to the ground,
List the self that you wish you had been more kind.
List the withered roots you kept,
List the memories you're being haunted by,
List the values you put in vain yet left to die,
List every piece you shattered, how it felt.
List every beginning that has met its end,
List every effort placed to revive your deceased and it all crumbled to your feet but shit you tried,
List every loss that crinkled the flame in your eyes that you disgustfully justified,
List how it's come to be that poison is all you bleed and losing all of your senses is what you need, tell me.. Why do you play pretend to the point that destruction is all you intend? Even beyond that I fail to comprehend
- Kristiana Jakobson
List the stars that lit a spark in your mind,
List the numbers that turning points arrived to yours you find,
List the moments that flourished your inner-child.
List the portals your soul has danced through,
List the time travels that dragged you in and tossed you out,
List the visions that insomnia vividly swept upon you to think about,
List the seconds of harsh rain washing away your hopes and alike a cigarette butt you threw.
List the dribbles of tears you covered behind the rain,
List the petals you tore in your heart hesitating whether or not to pursue,
List the fractions of the intoxicated poisoned your intuitions like a floorplan you drew,
List the promises you swore to never embark again.
List the thoughts that's inside your mind,
List the blood baths of destruction you've found yourself addicted,
List the confessions you hold yourself convicted,
List the things you've left behind.
List the pills you drowned in with water thinking that's your antidote,
List the reasons behind every clenched fist punching through walls,
List every silent prayer beneath every drug you held up high in a pedestal,
List every self-inflicted suicide note.
List every nostalgic playlist you pause only to rewind,
List those you wished to have kept around,
List the moments your knees collapsed to the ground,
List the self that you wish you had been more kind.
List the withered roots you kept,
List the memories you're being haunted by,
List the values you put in vain yet left to die,
List every piece you shattered, how it felt.
List every beginning that has met its end,
List every effort placed to revive your deceased and it all crumbled to your feet but shit you tried,
List every loss that crinkled the flame in your eyes that you disgustfully justified,
List how it's come to be that poison is all you bleed and losing all of your senses is what you need, tell me.. Why do you play pretend to the point that destruction is all you intend? Even beyond that I fail to comprehend
- Kristiana Jakobson
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